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    Hayden posted an update 4 years, 6 months ago

    What the … *fuck* … is happening here? This place is just disgusting now. I’m so disappointed. Once a beautiful community, now a target for perverts and trolls who take advantage of those with already fragile state of minds.

    • t’s so frustrating, sad and annoying to see what has become of BT @devilndisguise, I always want this place to be a supportive, loving and compassionate community, but what has happened to BT now is just so disappointing, it’s become a site filled with trolls, bots, spammers and perverts, how did this place fall so far?, it shouldn’t be like this,…[Read more]

    • @oliver

      Completely agree, Oli. I’d love to see you become an admin. I’ve been rooting for that to happen since I joined over 4 years ago!
      I guess we just have to keep hoping, somehow. I wish the owner still cared about this place, or another place like this would come around.

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    Hayden posted an update 4 years, 6 months ago

    There was a shooting last night, barely ten seconds down the road from where I work. My girlfriend was also working at the time, another place right down the road.

    Two people were killed. This world is so scary to live in sometimes.

    • I’m so sorry that happened @devilndisguise, that is really scary, do remember to take care of yourself and be mindful of your personal security when you are going about your business in your day to day activities, my awesome friend Hayden, make sure you and your girlfriend are safe and secure where you live Hayden, everything will be OK, hope…[Read more]

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    Hayden posted a new activity comment 4 years, 7 months ago

    In reply to: cocoaflaun posted an update ready for new beginnings. View

    @cocoaflaun

    Best of luck during your new beginnings. :) Keep positive and conquer on through your journey.

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    Hayden posted an update 4 years, 7 months ago

    I’m a little bit anxious today. I typically am on Saturdays, thanks to work. But I had a good day yesterday and then a really great night, so I’m going to do my best to keep a hopeful spirit up today.

    • Please don’t feel anxious @devilndisguise, do relax and focus on making each day as bright, positive and wonderful as you can, my fantastic friend Hayden, you deserve the best out of life Hayden, remember to always smile and keep going forward with optimism, you can do it Hayden, never give up, inbox me anytime if you ever need to chat or vent,…[Read more]

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    Hayden posted an update 4 years, 7 months ago

    Did plenty of Autumn & Halloween shopping today with my girlfriend. Next will be gathering pumpkins and putting together the decorations.

    • Awww that’s so wonderful and nice @devilndisguise, do have a great Halloween and keep creating special moments with your girlfriend, hope you are OK, my awesome friend Hayden, feel free to inbox me anytime if you ever need to talk, stay strong, you are never alone :) (hugs)

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    Hayden posted an update 4 years, 7 months ago

    Feeling festive today! It might not officially be Autumn on the calendar yet, but the cooler weather has rolled in here and Halloween is right around the corner.

    • It’s great to see you feeling festive, happy and upbeat @devilndisguise, the weather is pretty mild here in the UK, hope things are nice in your part of the world, my awesome friend Hayden, keep smiling and always be the fantastic person that you are, feel free to inbox me anytime if you ever need to talk, stay strong, you are never alone :) (hugs)

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    Hayden posted an update 4 years, 7 months ago

    For once in quite awhile, I can say with truth and ease that I am okay. Today was okay.

    Perhaps it’s just for today. Perhaps it’ll last. Who knows? All that matters to me right now is appreciating the content feeling while it lasts, as I know these occurrences do not come often for me.

    Mood : Content
    • It’s wonderful to see you feeling upbeat, content and positive @devilndisguise, keep smiling and remember to make each day as wonderful as you can, my awesome friend Hayden, I want to see you happy because you truly deserve all the best out of life Hayden, I’m so proud of you Hayden, keep going forward and always smile brightly, you can do it…[Read more]

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    Hayden posted a new activity comment 4 years, 7 months ago

    In reply to: Cecelia posted an update my friends sure are betraying me deeper and deepr meanwhile my family are keeping up their drama and i feel totally hooked on wasting my money on online shopping and my writings have not […] View

    @Invincible

    I’m sorry they’re treating you this way. I’ve had my fair share of “friends”; I thought I needed them in my life because they were all I had. But I eventually learned that I’d rather be alone than to be treated poorly by so-called friends.
    I hope better people enter into your life, the family drama dies down, and some ease…[Read more]

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    Hayden posted a new activity comment 4 years, 7 months ago

    In reply to: Cecelia posted an update went outside for a bit in the storm, now i am calm. <3 View

    @Invincible

    That sounds so pleasant. I always enjoy going outside during storms. It really is relaxing.

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    Hayden posted a new activity comment 4 years, 7 months ago

    In reply to: Taryn posted an update Save me from these university lectures! View

    @tprince

    I can’t imagine the struggle. Hope you make it through those lectures alright!

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    Hayden posted a new activity comment 4 years, 7 months ago

    In reply to: Hayden posted an update And!!! My girlfriend and I are coming up on 2 years together in October! <3 I cannot describe how absolutely thrilled that makes me, looking back at the post I made about us first getting […] View

    Thank you as always, my dear friend. :) @Oliver

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    Hayden posted an update 4 years, 7 months ago

    And!!! My girlfriend and I are coming up on 2 years together in October! <3 I cannot describe how absolutely thrilled that makes me, looking back at the post I made about us first getting together. (Gosh, I'm such a cheeseball.)

    How lucky am I, though? I am thankful every single day that we grow together, because there was once upon a time that…[Read more]

    Mood : In love
    • Awwww that’s so adorable, sweet and cute @devilndisguise, I wish you and your girlfriend all the best Hayden, remember to always make your relationship loving and strong, be each others soulmates forever and never let the spark fade from your relationship, you are such a beautiful and kind human-being who deserves to be loved and have someone to…[Read more]

    • Thank you as always, my dear friend. :) @Oliver

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    Hayden posted an update 4 years, 7 months ago

    I did that thing that I tend to do every few months and decided to stalk my own profile. It’s a helpful pillar for me whenever I feel stuck and hopeless. My own page works as a motivator, to remind me of the past that I’ve overcome and show me how much higher I stand nowadays.

    While nothing is perfect for me, I am still much better than I was,…[Read more]

    Mood : Accomplished
    • It’s wonderful to see how much you have grown and how far you have come @devilndisguise, it’s nice to see you using your own page on BT to motivate yourself to stay happier and positive, I’m so proud of you, my amazing friend Hayden, you are truly brave, courageous and strong Hayden, you deserve all the happiness that life has to offer,…[Read more]

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    Hayden posted a new activity comment 4 years, 7 months ago

    In reply to: Katherine posted an update yo I remember making this account back when I was in middle school, and now I’m in college, time flies haha View

    @teamtennantgirl

    Crazy how time flies. I made my account in May of 2014, so over five years ago. I’d needed desperate help over what now seems like something so little in the midst of everything else. But it got me here, and I’ve met wonderful people because of it. :)

    Hope you’re doing well!

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    Hayden posted a new activity comment 4 years, 7 months ago

    In reply to: Alexia posted an update Does anyone know the feeling of just anxiousness for no reason at all? That’s what I feel like right now View

    @amclean023

    The struggles of living with an anxiety disorder. I can totally relate.
    You can be doing anything or nothing at all, and boom, anxiety. Sitting on the couch, driving, reading, playing on your phone; even immediately after waking up in the morning.

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    Hayden posted an update 4 years, 7 months ago

    Scrolled through 24 hours worth of posts and there’s a single update from a genuine human being.

    I am deeply sorry from the bottom of my heart to the new members that come around in hopes for what was once such a bright, lively, and caring community. Instead you are welcomed by the very few of us that are left, those who pass through…[Read more]

    • It’s so annoying and sad to see what the spam has done to this beautiful community @devilndisguise, I guess all we can hope for are that the moderators come back and sort this out or that someone else becomes moderator/admin on BT, I want the spam to be deleted permanently so BT can always be a place of compassion, love and kindness, hope you are…[Read more]

    • it’s completely heartbreaking. I love this community and so quickly its turned into this… just months ago it was booming with supportive people and now the spam has completely made it look awful. I’m absolutely angry about this and really hope it can get fixed up because I do not know what I would do without this website.

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    Hayden posted an update 4 years, 7 months ago

    I also see that the moderation regarding the spam hasn’t changed in the slightest since the three months I’ve been absent. It was certainly a big part in why I disappeared again in the first place

    • It’s honestly so frustrating and annoying @devilndisguise, the spam has to be removed so BT always remains a place of love, kindness and compassion Hayden, if needed I would put myself forward to be admin or moderator on BT because all the admins seem to have deserted this site, it’s so good to see you back on BT Hayden, I’m so sorry that…[Read more]

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    Hayden posted an update 4 years, 7 months ago

    Didn’t realize how long it had been since I’d last logged in.

    It’s been a rough while. Making it through as always. I have my good days, but I mostly have my bad days.

    Today’s a little bit of both.

    Mood : Depressed
    • I don’t want to see you feeling sad and upset @devilndisguise, you are such a lovely, kind and wonderful friend to me Hayden, I want to see you feeling truly happy, positive and fantastic, life may throw obstacles at you but you will overcome them and come out so much stronger Hayden, remember to focus on all the things that bring you hope and…[Read more]

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    Hayden posted an update 4 years, 11 months ago

    Been a few weeks from hell. I don’t know how much longer I can take all of this.

    Mood : Dark
    • I don’t want to see you feeling upset, depressed or sad @devilndisguise, my beautiful friend Hayden deserves to feel truly happy and positive because he is so special, lovely and amazing to me and all of us here on BT, I want to see you smiling Hayden, your friendship and support means so much to me Hayden, you will win all your battles because…[Read more]

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    Hayden posted an update 4 years, 11 months ago

    @oliver

    Thank you so much for the beautiful testimonial, Oli. You are truly a great friend. It left me feeling very appreciated. I’m happy to be there when needed, and will continue to try my hardest to help those in need.

    Thanks for being such an awesome friend. :) <3

    Mood : Grateful
    • You truly deserved that testimonial @devilndisguise, because you are so kind, sweet and lovely to me and everyone on BT, this community is so lucky to have such a special person like yourself here Hayden, you make me and everyone else feel so cared for especially during dark times, thank you for all you do and will continue to do on BT Hayden,…[Read more]

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