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    mariko posted an update 1 day, 3 hours ago

    Another meltdown yesterday and a stop to the hospital. Too much on me lately.
    And to help today my sister is having the worst attitude ever. Why? Stuff was going so well…

    • Oli replied 1 day ago

      I don’t want to see you feeling down or upset @marikofujimoto, you are such a beautiful, special and kind angel who deserves to have a smile on her face sweetie, hold your head up high Mariko and don’t let anything or anyone bring you down, your sister should treat you with love and respect, remember so many people on BT care about you and so do…[Read more]

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    Cecelia posted an update 2 days, 9 hours ago

    actually getting severe exhaustion from being piled on useless shit from my classes
    and getting no understanding from a so-called”friend” – might have to drop them because their behavior is no way acceptable right now.

    • Oli replied 2 days ago

      Try to relax and take a break from your studies when you need time to yourself, surround yourself with people who will treat you with respect and kindness @invincible, I want to see you being loved and cared for Cecelia, smile because you are truly fabulous, hold your head up high and keep going forward with confidence, you can do it, inbox me…[Read more]

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    mariko posted an update 4 days, 14 hours ago

    The day didn’t go bad, actually was pretty good. Let’s see how tomorrow will be. Goodnight everyone

    • It’s wonderful to see that you had a wonderful day @marikofujimoto, sleep well and get a good rest sweetie, I’m sure tomorrow will be fantastic Mariko, stay positive and keep going, you can do it, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, stay strong, you are never alone :) <3 (hugs)

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    mariko posted an update 5 days, 15 hours ago

    First latin class tomorrow. Will be a bit later (at 10 am) , for some reason the teacher will be busy before, meaning only 1 hour of class. But still nervous af. Wish me luck…

    • You’ll do great in your Latin class @marikofujimoto, work as hard as you can, stay positive and know you will be successful sweetie, smile and keep going forward, you can do it, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, stay strong, you are never alone :) <3 (hugs)

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    mariko posted an update 6 days, 2 hours ago

    Talking to my bf till 2 am ,crying and etc, I realised my past still hunts me ALOT. I had 20 years of bullying pretty much ( I was already bullied at 3 years old basically) , super abusive relationships, bullied for looks and ironically for having good grades… and I guess I grew cold and started to hate people. So is really hard now to feel…[Read more]

    • You are such a beautiful, kind and lovely angel who deserves happiness and all the best that life has to offer @marikofujimoto, don’t let your past get you down or stand in your way sweetie, I was bullied in high school and from personal experience, I know how bad the effects of bullying can be, I don’t want to see you feeling sad or upset because…[Read more]

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    mariko posted an update 6 days, 16 hours ago

    Can’t stop crying today. No matter how much I try to talk to people, even those who care about me, I never feel warmth from them. They never fully understand me. I genuinly feel like I’m alone in this world. I only have books and my shows. And in the end, only I understand myself.

    • I don’t want to see you feeling upset, sad or alone @marikofujimoto, please know so many people care about and love you Mariko, be kind to yourself because you are truly a beautiful, lovely and special angel, surround yourself with all the things that bring you hope, I want to see you smiling because you are amazing inside and out, I wish I could…[Read more]

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    mariko posted an update 1 week, 1 day ago

    I have a friendship that is complicated. We know each other since year 11. At the time I was struggling with depression and anxiety (Im better but still struggle) and she was struggling with anorexia, bulimia and anxiety. She’s much bettter now and graduated from law school.
    And recently she reached out to me asking me how I was. This after…[Read more]

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    • Oli replied 1 week ago

      That’s so lovely @marikofujimoto, it’s great to see you re-connecting with friends and being there for each other sweetie, hope this friendship continues going strong for you hun, smile brightly Mariko and never give up, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, you are never alone :) <3 (hugs)

    • @marikofujimoto thats awesome, I’m so happy for you, be sure to stay in touch with her :)

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    mariko posted an update 1 week, 1 day ago

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    mariko posted an update 1 week, 1 day ago

    Ok FINALLY they’re adding the classes to my schedule, phew!

    • That’s wonderful @marikofujimoto, I’m sure you will do great in all your classes and be successful sweetie, smile and keep going forward as so much brightness lies ahead for you hun, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, stay strong, you are never alone :) <3 (hugs)

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    mariko posted an update 1 week, 2 days ago

    When you find out you’ll have a Latin class *screams*
    But for real, aside of that I’m super excited. My degree is genuinly all about history, geography, languages and specially Literature. All of these things are my passion <3

    • I’m sure you will do great in your Latin class @marikofujimoto, do work as hard as you can sweetie, it’s great to know that you are doing a degree in subjects that you are passionate about hun, stay upbeat and know you will be successful, keep going and never give up Mariko, you can do it, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, stay…[Read more]

    • @marikofujimoto ughh I had a years worth of latin over the summer… I did not enjoy it at all, but it wasn’t too bad

    • :c oh no, I hope mine are better then… A bit scared of that class

    • Thank you so much Oli , you’re always so supportive :)

    • @marikofujimoto The thing about it is a lot of it just makes sense, like memorzing vocab is way better since a lot of roots will be familiar already! It is a bit challenging but its more of the, “need to devote study time to memorize things” sort of challenge, and less of the “I don’t understand this” challenge. So, just study, ask questions…[Read more]

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    Cecelia posted an update 1 week, 2 days ago

    Feeling sick and exhausted from stress.

    • Try to relax and focus on all the things that bring you happiness and joy @invincible, you will be OK Cecelia, look after yourself and always be the fabulous ray of sunshine that you are, smile and never give up, you can do it, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, stay strong, you are never alone :) (hugs)

    • So sorry darling, I hope you’re feeling better :(
      Stress and anxiety fucking suck. Drain us emotionally, mentally, physically. But you have people that care here! ^^

    • Please take it easy on yourself. Nice deep breathes. (: I’m here, if you need to talk.

    • thank you! ♥

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    Cecelia posted an update 1 week, 3 days ago

    I am only a human OK not a freaking ROBOT.

    • You are a special, amazing and lovely human-being who deserves happiness @invincible, don’t let anyone tell you differently Cecelia, I want to see you have a bright smile on your face, hold your head up high and keep going forward with confidence, you can do it, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent about anything, stay strong, you are…[Read more]

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    mariko posted an update 1 week, 3 days ago

    I fixed two massive issues uni related, however for some reason my schedule doesn’t show up with all my subjects –” , hope they show up soon cause on the 20th my classes start

    • Hopefully your schedule will be fixed really soon @marikofujimoto, do talk to someone in your university sweetie so everything will be right for you on the first day of classes, I’m sure you will do great no matter what hun, stay positive Mariko and know you will be successful, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, stay strong, you are…[Read more]

    • @marikofujimoto I totally feel ya. Im trying to fulfill all my documents I need to turn in for Uni. Classes for me start around Sept 28th. Super nervous and all. I wish us both luck! :) Goodluck with everything Mariko!

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    mariko posted an update 1 week, 4 days ago

    When you have panick attacks everyday cause just the thought of socialising scares the crap out of you….

    • Please don’t let anxiety get you down @marikofujimoto, I know how you feel sweetie, I’m shy too, try your best to surround yourself with people who will bring you compassion and love Mariko, let your bright personality shine and keep going forward hun, you can do it beautiful angel, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, stay strong, you…[Read more]

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    Cecelia posted an update 2 weeks ago

    just had an emotional, fearful panic attack regarding something medical, empathy for others and a sudden fear- i guess i am OK now, but … of course none of my friends or family cared. Ha. They did all you DON’T Do at someone panicking. But ya know, whatever I guess.

    • Oli replied 2 weeks ago

      Try to relax and surround yourself with the things that bring you hope @invincible, I want to see you smiling and living each day to the fullest Cecelia, your family really should support and be there for you, remember the BT community will always be here for you Cecelia and so will I, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, stay strong, you…[Read more]

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    mariko posted an update 2 weeks, 1 day ago

    Some people are genuinly annoying. My cousin – such an amazing guy (not) who bullied me before – came to my house and is STILL here!!! He’s been here for over 5 fucking hours. And is not the nice company you enjoy, all he does is gossip and judge. My god. I’m actually starving and can’t even go to grab some food ‘-’ .. I also can’t go out to…[Read more]

    • Don’t let him bring you down or have any power over you @marikofujimoto, try to have a good day and ignore him as best you can sweetie, hopefully he will leave soon and everything will be OK Mariko, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, stay strong, you are never alone :) <3 (hugs)

    • @marikofujimoto ahh, nothing like the unwanted presence of rude family members…. sorry you’re dealing with that. Honestly if you want food, you get it. It’s your house, not his. You do you and take care

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    mariko posted an update 2 weeks, 2 days ago

    Super sleepy, going to bed. Tomorrow if everything goes well, having breakfast with my mum and go on a nice walk on the beach.
    Goodnight everyone :) *

    • Hope you manage to get a good rest and sleep well @marikofujimoto, I’m sure you will have a fantastic day tomorrow sweetie, look after yourself hun and always be amazing Mariko, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent about anything, stay strong, you are never alone :) <3 (hugs)

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    mariko posted an update 2 weeks, 2 days ago

    I entered!! I ENTERED FOR THE DEGREE I WANTED! ARRRRRRGH <3

    • That’s wonderful to hear @marikofujimoto, you should be so proud of yourself sweetie, your future will be so bright as you work hard to obtain your degree Mariko, smile, hold your head up high and keep going forward hun, you can do it Mariko, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, stay strong, you are never alone :) <3 (hugs)

    • @marikofujimoto aaaaay that’s awesome! Glad to see you’re making progress with what you want to do, getting started is one of the hardest parts so once you’re over that initial bump you get the ball rolling. ^_^

    • Thank you guys, you’re both very sweet :)

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