Well im pretty excited for this year.
I had a good start by going to LA where i always wanted to go, it was almost a push of motivation for me to really follow my dreams.

Since i left my toxic relationship of 4 years, i started to hang out with really good intension people with goals and things to look forward to.
Now there was this boy that i had a semi crush on for a while, hes a artist/DJ and whenever he would have venues I would come to a few. So we became like friends over time.
Now i never felt like i should really throw myself at him, because these little groupies and i didnt want to be another girl who just spreads there legs for him, so i kept him as a distant friend for a while.
Now when me and my ex broke up, he knew about it, so i decided to really hang out with him more, and his friends, and sometimes we would leave alone and talk for hours till the next day with out doing anything.
We would go for a bike ride, or he would video chat with me until i fell asleep.
Of course we flirted sent each other risky snap chat videos but nothing really heavy.
Until finally we spoke about our feelings, and he mentioned about keep a open thing, and i wasnt to crazy about it at first, so i said no,
But i took sometime to think about it and i agreed because i was basically keeping myself open and seeing other people, so its only fair.
And we both mentioned we didnt want a relationship which was perfectly ok with me.
But over a week, the first night we slept together i was obsessed. He was so great and made it about me, and it was so personal. And we cuddled and he was so sweet with me.
Now we kept spending time with each other, the night of his bday we were obviously into each other but we didnt want to make it obvious or let anyone know. SO after his bday i went over his place and he would take me home the next morning.
And we kept seeing each other, and laughing.
Till finally we got into the conversation about dating. and how at first he thought i was this wild girl, and it was really me just being single, but in a relationship i avoid clubs and bars just so im not around single guys hitting on me. And he respected that.

Well i have an idea he like me, and i feel like we have a great connection, were great friends, and have great sex, and i feel like hes really good for me, he makes me want to push more towards my goals.

Im super exited and terrified at the same time, he knows about my ex, and how hurt i was. I just hope he doesn’t screw me over, im starting to like him a lot more and more we hang out. I want to keep things light, and so far everything has been going naturally.