I would try to talk to a doctor and see if they can help you through this @somelameperson, talk to your partner as well about what you want out of the relationship, hopefully everything will be OK and things will work out in a way that benefits you, I’m sure your job will continue going well, stay fantastic and keep going, you can do it, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, stay strong, you are never alone (hugs)