Everything has been going entirely wrong in my life… I thought I was really close to buying some cheap car so I can finally after 21 years on this planet could have freedom to work, explore my town and ones near and maybe even to try to make new friends. I have the money but my family said they would rather kill themselves then to help me. (Yes, they said that.) it’s so easy for people to say well walk or catch the city bus. Firstly, everything isn’t for everyone and I live in a bad neighborhood. Recently, there’s been a guy who been raping women right near me. I also have my ptsd due to being abused and knowing that my abuser is near freaks me out from doing that. I’m closed in either in my room all day or being forced to be with my family. It’s so awful. I should be out enjoying life yet I do nothing but cry all day.