Please don’t let sadness get you down @eagergreen, I would try to talk to someone you can trust about things, you should be allowed to make your own decisions about any treatment that you are doing, I want to see you happy and living each day to the fullest, try to stay positive and upbeat, you can do it, never give up, keep fighting, I’m always here if you need someone to confide in, message me anytime, my inbox is always open, stay strong, you are never alone (hugs)